I’m trying more and more to dissociate myself from any negative thoughts I have, such as “but I’m tired… but I don’t want to go… but I have so much to do today… but it hurts”. They are just thoughts. They get in the way of getting things done. So I acknowledge their existence, but disregard them. A bit like I would with a whinging kid — “Oh really darling. That’s nice.” whilst getting them dressed and ready for school. You can absolutely not want to go — but you still have to do it.
In yoga today, I finally got through something resembling the utthita hasta padangusthasana (extended hand to big toe pose). I remember months ago saying how much I was looking forward to the day I could do it; but somehow I feel like I have always been able to do it, I only thought that I couldn’t. I still haven’t mastered it (legs aren’t completely extended, spine is a little hunched, balance is wobbly, my five breaths are more like 3-and-a-half), but I remain convinced that I will get there eventually as long as I keep working at it. I’m that much closer to it.
Bright young spark that I am, I scheduled a driving lesson for 10, so I really need to get a move on. This annoys me as I like to chill out after yoga! But I guess these are just thoughts… Still have to go.